Sunday, June 25, 2017

Emotions and Rocks

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Yesterday morning I was fortunate to be able to participate in a two-hour Emotions Mentor pilot class as an introduction to a three-day expanded one. Teresa needed to give two of these in order to get her certification. The grand finale was a guided meditation which I wish I could have recorded. I will attempt to recall as much as I can.

Closing your eyes, you imagine you are about to embark on a journey to the top of a mountain. However, the backpack you brought with you is filled with rocks. The road is long and the weight of the backpack drains your energy. 

You stop along the way, but only take one of the rocks out of the backpack before you continue on. It isn’t long before you are tired again from the weight of the backpack, once again choosing a rock to leave behind before you continue the journey.

This step is repeated multiple times.

Finally, you have let go of all the rocks you’ve brought with you and are able to climb to the top of the mountain.

Since I’ve been up in the mountains before, it was easy for me to imagine I was there.

What are these rocks? Subconscious beliefs about who you are, the conclusions you made during vulnerable moments when you were a child, and what you’re capable of accomplishing in life.

I knew some of the rocks I had let go of in previous years were my conclusions about the degrading words my father often spoke in our presence. I believed they were about me. I was worthless and unlovable. No matter how hard I tried, I was never good enough. 

I continued this pattern on in life attracting partners (and employers) I constantly strived to prove my worth to, resulting in perfectionism. I had to do everything I was asked to do and do it perfectly, putting my own needs last. I allowed circumstances to happen – no matter how uncomfortable – just for the sake of feeling I had value. My soul rebelled by manifesting illness and physical pain. It was my only perceived way out, even though the consequences were dire.

During this meditation, I discovered a new layer to my perceived subconscious money blocks. It helped that Teresa had shared how she had come to the conclusion that SHE wasn’t good enough when her mother said certain words. Yet, Teresa had carried the conclusion on into her adult life which ran as a background program in her subconscious mind. In her marriage, when she heard her husband say certain things, she lost her temper and walked out of the room. It turned out what her mother said meant something completely different and her husband didn’t mean what she made his words mean. Until she let go of her ROCKS, she was unable to become successful at what she does now. I greatly admired her transparency.

I’m in the meditation, walking the path, carrying rocks in my backpack, digesting the words Teresa had spoken when clarity began to surface.

Dad was the youngest child. He wanted to be as big and strong as his brothers. His older brothers did well in the world financially, while Dad didn’t. (Keep in mind Dad was challenged with Aspergers which he never figured out – we did after nephew Brett was diagnosed.) I often heard Dad talk about his brothers in derogatory ways regarding money and women. 

I had concluded based on these words that not only was it not OK to have money, it was not OK to be a WOMAN and have money, never mind be successful.

I have been looking up to the women who could get on a stage, earn thousands of dollars giving amazing speeches, putting them on pedestals, wishing I could get there, too. It’s why I joined Toastmasters. I’d be happy if I could even stand in front of a dozen people and speak. In Toastmasters, lots of women are getting on stages, doing workshops, and giving amazing speeches. Lots of women are highly sought after public speakers. 

YET, something – one or more rocks – continued to hold me back. I thought it was fear of losing the security of my disability benefits. Maybe this is still one of the rocks, but I think I discovered what the BIG one is  –  the subconscious belief that it is not OK for me to have lots of money or be successful.

I bought a bag of small flat shiny rocks yesterday afternoon for symbolism.

The meditation helped me realize which rocks I was still carrying.

What if I could leave behind the last of them? How far could I go?

What if YOU could leave behind the rocks you carry? How far could YOU go?

Note: Theta Belief Work, EFT, and Essential Oils are tools for letting go of rocks.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

The Little Pill

As I placed the tiny pill (Mirtazapine/Anti-Depressant) into my daily pill reminder, it finally sunk in how much power a tiny little pill has on the human body. (Animals, too.) One tiny Ativan or Valium can sedate you in the midst of an anxiety attack. One tiny pill can lower your blood pressure. How much power do you think the food you eat has? And the chemical additives and preservatives have? And the toxins in skin-care products and household cleaners?

I can appreciate the miraculous system of my body to process the food I eat and the fluids I drink, but I no longer want to give it more than it can handle – and create and maintain optimal health. By optimal, I mean the best I am capable of giving my body – to support its pre-existing conditions 
 with the hope it will continue to grow stronger.

In the meantime, since buying doTerra Peppermint oil, I’ve had an insatiable appetite to inhale it and drink water with two drops in it. Two TINY drops. All day long, each time I refill my glass of water.

When I mentioned this to my ‘teacher,’ she responded, “Well, of course! Peppermint is anti-inflammatory! That makes perfect sense!”

At that moment, I realized that two tiny drops had been, indeed, reducing overall pain… a pleasant addition to getting more Oxygen during the night while I sleep with the CPAP. My other favorite right now is Past Tense. I roll some of this on the vertebrae of my neck and feel the warmth spread, while the scent of delicious oils permeates my senses.

And then there’s HOPE. I was intrigued, so I ordered a bottle. It smells wonderful! doTerra created HOPE to give out to children who are being enslaved by sex trafficking, with the promise they would be rescued by the Healing Hands Foundation, which partners with Operation Underground Railroad. Did you even know there was one? They hand out bottles of HOPE to children they are seeking to rescue (it's a process) to let them know a rescue is planned. All profits from selling this oil to the rest of us benefits this Foundation as well. 

Knowing I am buying something ($20 a bottle) that makes this much difference in the lives of children, gives me HOPE for this world. doTerra partners with indigenous people in other countries as well for plant farming in their natural habitat. While the plants are being attended by the farmers, doTerra provides those who participate improved quality of living. I know when I buy the oils, I am also contributing to decent salaries (charities) all over the world vs. buying products that are produced by child labor for pennies.

Back to the tiny pill. I was one of many who were brainwashed to believe the pharma pills had all the power, along with the doctors who prescribed them. Back in 2010, I was taking 11 prescription drugs every day. Now I only take two. 

May I, as well as many others, find solutions for their health with clean eating… and Certified Therapeutic Grade Essential Oils, like doTerra. (The ones sold in Walmart say they are not safe to ingest and likely diluted with additives.) Indeed, it surely is nice to crave Peppermint oil instead of sweets and junk food!

Monday, May 15, 2017


We all have our stories. Since the beginning of time, there have been story-tellers. The bible is filled with them. The first one that pops into my mind is the story of Job. I relate to this one because my life felt like his... only he stood his ground in his faith, while I wavered in a state of confusion.

When you were a child, hopefully someone read stories to you. Then hopefully, you learned to read and you read lots of books. Perhaps they were fantasy, perhaps they were mysteries, perhaps they were adventure, perhaps they were romance. Or politics, war, history, and religion. His-story. What about Her-story?

What are your stories? Do you have the courage to tell them?

This past week, I was invited to tell my 'story'. Twice. I was thinking about this while I took a shower this morning. What could I conclude by being asked twice in the same week? I tend to be a bit long-winded (self perception) when someone invites me to tell how I was able to walk again after being wheelchair dependent for about five years. How does one explain in just a few minutes the complex process of what I went through to get back on my feet? Or how the stress of life circumstances kept me incapacitated? After all, it wasn't something simple like having non-invasive back surgery.

Because I couldn't get the help I needed and didn't know what type of help would benefit me the most, the journey was a complex one. I decided to read, study, and research for myself how to get myself better. Now that I reflect back on these years, I realize I must have somehow known I COULD get better.

I had to come to terms with the Law of Attraction... how I was inviting most of the disastrous scenarios into my life because it was all I was focused on. 

I found out about the 10 forms of twisted thinking (cognitive distortions) which led to my being able to finally climb out of the black hole I fell into. I'm sure it helped that I acknowledged I had every single one of them. When I discovered my thoughts were all twisted and my conclusions mostly false, I got excited because this meant I could find the ones that were true!

I learned that stress, my perception of life events, and lack of knowledge of stress-reduction techniques kept me incapacitated. Stress is a complex mix ranging from negative thoughts, a sedentary life, poor nutrition, side effects to medications, grief, and more. When the stress subsided, the sun in my world came out. Literally. Imagine waking up one day and actually noticing the sun was shining and the sky was blue.

Yes, I had lots of stories. However, the people I told my stories to didn't want to hear them so their responses affected my self-esteem.

I used to tell lots of stories about how bad everything was in my life. There weren't any happy endings... and there's nothing like hearing from others that one of my stories was about their life, too... only they didn't know how to tell their own story... or like I used to feel, that no one cared or would listen.

Google search or type in the YouTube search box 'TED Talks' and you will find many stories. The rage now is to incorporate story-telling to create connections with other people... in politics, religion... even in sales and marketing. The catch is, you must find the right audience to listen to them. Family may not be this audience, especially when they are caught up in their own toxic life, yet refuse to tell anyone what's going on inside their head.

I Googled the Psychology of Storytelling and found an article in Psychology Today.

"Stories are authentic human experiences. Stories leap frog the technology and bring us to the core of experience, as any good storyteller (transmedia or otherwise) knows. There are several psychological reasons why stories are so powerful."

Here's the link so you can read the rest of the article:

I really like this part:

"Stories are about collaboration and connection. They transcend generations, they engage us through emotions, and they connect us to others. Through stories we share passions, sadness, hardships and joys. We share meaning and purpose. Stories are the common ground that allows people to communicate, overcoming our defenses and our differences. Stories allow us to understand ourselves better and to find our commonality with others."

I wish I knew back then what I know now, how important my stories were and still are. Now that I am in Toastmasters, I am learning how to tweak them to become specific speeches. My challenge is figuring out how to condense my really long stories down to five minutes and choosing which parts of the stories would have the most impact. 

I also can't help but wonder if our core desire to have good stories to tell resulted in the life we experience. Which came first? The chicken or the egg? Do we decide what our stories will be before we are born? Was the life we lived created by these stories? When we figure out we are powerful creators - creating our own lives, can we completely change gears and create a new one? So far, I am finding the answer to this last question to be yes.

My deepest desire is to feel connection. Now that I feel safe sharing my stories and I'm receiving validation for having the courage to share them, I confidently move forward! I am told my newfound joy is infectious and somehow, someway, I will figure out how to effectively inspire transformation in others. 

What's more, I recently published two new books. The first, Alternate Realities: Daydreams of Conversations is a collection of short stories based on my life experiences only with imaginary happy endings. 

"Once upon a time... as all fairy tales begin... sparks the imagination. I recently began writing them after I came across the concept that regardless of how difficult your life has been, you can recreate your life by imagining and writing a different story. For those who like to immerse themselves in all kinds of possibilities, I recommend that you write some of your own. Who knows? One of them might come true! The following short stories are in this book: The Psychologist, The Barista Restaurant, Twin Flame, Wish Maker, The Blue Stone, Kindred Spirits, Fairy God Father"

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I also updated and republished Personal Journal & Recipes for Healthy Living

"Is your life perfect? Excellent mental and physical health? Doing what you love? Then you don't need this book. For the rest of you, in Personal Journal & Recipes for Healthy Living, the recipes are not just food related. In between these 'recipes' are journaling exercises guided by wisdom on how to proceed. The journaling exercises lead up to the grand finale of how to write and publish your own book using what you wrote in this journal. Inside are snapshots of just about all aspects of life including goal setting, thought watching, mental health, nutrition, complementary and alternative medicine, exploring childhood memories, stress management, faith, and budgeting. I made this journal simple vs. complex as I personally need simple!"

The revised version is not available on Amazon yet, but here it is on CreateSpace.

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Thank you for stopping by and reading my post. Please share... how have your stories affected your life and what have you done to create new ones?

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Autoimmune, Calcium, Sleep Apnea, Pain, & Vaccines

I finished reading The Autoimmune Fix — and learned more about what Dr. Mark Wiley wrote in Arthritis Reversed. Then I read The Calcium Lie II — and learned about all the physical, emotional, and mental consequences of drinking milk and taking Calcium supplements.

The Calcium Lie II has answered many questions and solved many mysteries. I had forgotten about meeting the mysterious Dr. Stephen King in the P.O. parking lot back in 2011 who had told me to STOP taking calcium supplements. It was accumulating in my joints, muscles, and even my brain (depression). I did for a while, but bent to the pressures of my past M.D. to take them again.

Highlights from The Calcium Lie II:

Before refrigeration, food (meat) was preserved in Rock Salt / Sea Salt which had ALL the minerals in it. Even cattle are given rock salt so they get their minerals. Post refrigeration, because the salt clumped together, all the minerals were processed out. When people were getting goiters, iodine was added back, but without all the other minerals our mineral balance is thrown off. As a result, the general population became mineral deficient and it all went downhill from there.

They say our soil is depleted so we don’t get enough nutrients. They add Ascorbic Acid to food and call it Vitamin C, which it isn’t so we are C deficient.... and it goes on...

The bakers didn’t like that flour clumped together either, so they processed the health benefits out, added bromine to keep it from clumping, and a few isolated vitamins. This flour went into all the baked goods along with iodized salt.

What are the health benefits of bromine? Have you ever asked? I certainly didn’t…

“Bromine is corrosive to human tissue in a liquid state and its vapors irritate eyes and throat. Bromine vapors are very toxic with inhalation. Humans can absorb organic bromines through the skin, with food and during breathing.”

And just like there doesn’t seem to be an escape from Roundup (glyphosate), avoiding grains won’t keep you safe from Bromine. They spray it on berries to keep them from getting moldy from the time they are picked to the time they get to market.

I watched the movie Food, Inc. on Netflix and learned even more about what is in most of the food we eat. Scary stuff!

I’ve been wishing for a solution to my sore, achy knees and legs. Still studying, researching, and hopeful. There’s so much I want to do and sometimes I feel ???? because my legs hurt too much to walk around anywhere. I haven’t even been able to go walking around my beautiful creek.

Along came The 2017 Tapping World Summit. I had already purchased The Tapping Solution for Pain Relief, but haven’t read it yet. While listening to various podcasts from this summit, I used my phone to record some of the tapping sequences — tools for purging stress and emotional components of pain and illness. Muscle spasm? Think aggravated, frustrated, angry, about things like:

“Why is this still happening? I’m eating right, taking the right supplements, drinking enough water, etc. I’m so frustrated! I’m doing everything I’m supposed to and the pain is still there!”

Mmmm. If all these other practitioners are using it, I can work on this, too. Instead of tapping on pain, you tap on the emotions, which include rejection, disappointment, anger, frustration, and resentment associated with the pain.

While The Tapping World Summit was going on, The Thyroid Secret began. More information about how stress-filled life throws everything out of balance and how the ‘Alopathic’ docs prescribe drugs for the symptoms vs. getting to the root cause… which includes toxins, SAD (Standard American Diet), and clearing the stories you’ve been telling yourself about all the life situations that resulted in stress-induced imbalances.

On the lineup to read is Heal Your Pain Now by Dr. Joe Tatta. Debora Wayne has an interesting program, too, and I subscribed to her emails. She says pain is solid and we can change it to fluid and then vapor. Your pain is REAL, but you can locate the source of the pain (emotions and/or memories) and release all the STUCK energy.

Within the same week, Kristin’s Essential Oil class was on PTSD. There is actually a trigger cycle. 3% of our brain is conscious. 97% is subconscious. We are ruled by the subconscious memories and conclusions (blueprint) which can easily be ‘triggered’ by things as tiny as someone looking at you wrong or saying the wrong word or when you hear certain sounds.

Within this same week, I decided to get Ambika’s BioTerrain testing done (urine analysis). The physical aspects of the pain can be attributed to an acidic body. When the body is overly acidic, the body takes minerals from vital organs and bones to neutralize the acid and remove it from the body.

I am not only acidic, I have high levels of Ammonia, Nitrates, and Oxidation. My body is trying to alkalize itself by pulling minerals from my bones. Very enlightening!

I asked if Sleep Apnea can contribute to this. She said yes. Not enough oxygen.

And the intuitive healer I saw at the Metaphysical Fair when I went to visit with Ambika told me I wasn’t breathing enough through my diaphragm. I love how everything comes together like a Master Mind team to come up with actual solutions.

In my opinion, medicine is like religion and politics. People go to med school to become doctors and most believe what they are taught, just like most students believe the history they are taught in school is correct when it’s not. Now that I’ve had the opportunity to listen to hundreds of docs from all over the world who have changed their religion or political affiliation to alternative / functional medicine, more people are becoming aware that the pharmaceutical / medical industry is a money making greedy business designed to keep us sick so they can make money off of treatments and drugs.


There are other tests I am considering, but perhaps won’t be needed in addition to the BioTerrain. Dr. Thompson (The Calcium Lie II) recommends a hair mineral analysis test so you can see a blueprint of which minerals you need (in addition to eating sea salt and taking organic ionic minerals).

There is the full spectrum thyroid testing (which my MD won’t do even though my TSH was too high) but Ambika, who has had thyroid issues since she was a young teen, gave me the book, Why Do I Still Have Thyroid Symptoms? to read. Thyroid levels change on a daily basis and testing would have to be done frequently.

I am also interested in the antibody panel, which will show specifically what your immune system is attacking. But why look for more trouble? If I can get my pH levels up and more oxygen while I sleep, since I don’t get colds or flu, I’ll walk this path for now… while dreaming of walking physically on paths in nature that I yearn for.

If only I could go back in time to when I was 38 years old and my body couldn’t handle any more of the stressful life I was living. It complained by spreading the sensation of pain to every part of my ‘physical’ body, while my ‘emotional’ body clung to the pain for its perceived protection. I was on fight or flight survival mode, running from unhappiness vs. a tiger.

According to everything I’ve been listening to about EFT (and treatments for pain) the pain was keeping me SAFE. The trouble is, it was keeping me SAFE inside the tiger’s mouth, and I felt the tiger’s sharp teeth all over my body.

The diagnosis was Fibromyalgia and the pain management doc I went to (thank you for taking care of me) began to prescribe heavy duty drugs to dull the pain. I had been stuffing / packing tight the emotions of trauma deep in the crevices of my body and it cooperated by holding on to everything I took in. Thank you, body, for keeping me SAFE.

In between all the research, reading, and studying in the areas of Mind-Body-Spirit medicine, I came across information on Obstructive Sleep Apnea. I wondered… could I have this?

I read somewhere that when you don’t get enough oxygen while you sleep, you can wake up tired and ache all over. Sounds like Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, doesn’t it? I thought so.

“Sleep Apnea in Patients With Fibromyalgia: A Growing Concern. Patients with fibromyalgia have a tenfold increase in sleep-disordered breathing, including obstructive sleep apnea.”

Besides CBT, I wonder what would have happened if I had been given a CPAP instead of drugs. I have early memories of waking up in the middle of the night gasping for air… before I began to take all the sedating medications.

I also have memories of being unable to move my body while thinking I was awake. It was terrifying. My crazy immature imagination thought I was being held down by some evil force. Have you ever experienced this really scary scenario? Scary because you had no clue what was happening? Add this to the other PTSD experiences you cope with. The light in the scary closet came on when I discovered something called sleep paralysis. However, my subconscious was still storing the fear.

“Sleep paralysis is a phenomenon in which a person either during falling asleep (Hypnagogia) or awakening (Hypnopompia), temporarily experiences an inability to move, speak, or react. It is a transitional state between wakefulness and sleep, characterized by muscle atonia (muscle weakness).”

So, was it sleep apnea this whole time? In addition to a fight or flight switch that never turned off? Your body can’t heal while in this fight or flight state.

I really had to do a LOT of work on myself and track all the positive things which came my way before realizing I was no longer in danger — that I was safe. That I have guardian angels and a God who watches over me. It took writing “Miracles Sandwiched Between the Challenges,” before I began to allow fear of life to subside, in addition to experiencing Theta Healing.

On Mar 29, I got a CPAP. I feel like an astronaut — or maybe a scuba diver. The original mask I got wasn’t right for me and I had to wait a week and a half for some new ones to come in. Even with this new one, I am not liking how tight the straps have to be to keep the mask snug against my face when the pressure of air goes up. I hope there is a solution. My machine includes a humidifier which eases my chronically blocked sinuses.

This past week, along came Pain Treatments That Work and The Truth About Vaccines. Awesome information about the Mind-Body connection to halting the pain cycle. Shocking information about what is in vaccines – as well as the fact they are not tested in clinical trials the way the drugs are. They have higher than the safe amounts of aluminum to trigger inflammation, thimerosal (mercury), foreign DNA from other species, and glyphosate (Roundup). In present time, the CDC mandates children receive 46 vaccines by the time they are six years old, 26 by the time they are two. They are poisoning our children! At this rate, we won’t need an atom bomb to wipe out most of the population. They are using VACCINES!

Sweet dreams!

Sunday, March 26, 2017

My Views on Childhood Education

While I continue to learn more about the Mind-Body-Spirit connection to illness and chronic pain, while processing the controversy around public education vs. vouchers for charter schools, I wonder how my life could have been different if the subjects I was taught in grade school through middle school included psychology, sociology, communication, relationships, finance, and self-defense. 

I wonder if instead of biology, social studies, and political science -- and all the FACTS I had to know (which I didn't) in order to get good grades on tests, I had the opportunity to learn all the aforementioned topics instead. As for sex education, this wasn't offered back when I was in school and I'm not sure it would have been beneficial to me if it had.

Learning about psychology, sociology, communication, and relationships (all topics I didn't get until I got to college) sure would have been an extremely interesting way for me and my classmates to learn about each other. Instead of feeling isolated, I could have felt connected.

I was one of the quiet bashful bullied children and I wonder -- if I had a voice -- and heard the other children's voices -- if the issues I faced would have existed. If my classrooms had a Toastmasters format, I would have heard my other classmates tell their stories and developed compassion early on instead of the effects of isolation and depression.

Children who are listened to and understood are less likely to become bullies and the number of people who develop substance abuse issues would be minimized. Children who are listened to and understood are less likely to develop chronic illness, disease, and pain - including mental illness.

We get hearing tests, vision tests, and all kinds of other tests. Why aren't children getting psychological testing? Why is it that only the children who are diagnosed by their pediatricians as needing said testing are being tested and getting help? (I have a friend who works for a psychologist who does this type of testing.)

What if the children who were classified early on as high-risk were put in separate rooms just like special ed rooms are for the developmentally disadvantaged? There are actually children who experience depression from a very young age which isn't caught by parents or pediatricians -- and I was one of them.

It would have been nice if I could have learned about basic psychological problems, including how we decide who we are by the time we are about six years old and whether this identity is true or not. Unfortunately, not every child has a safe start with mentally fit, healthy parents or they only have one parent who has no choice but to work, leaving their child(ren) to fend for themselves. Not every child has a 'church family' to provide structure nor do they have an extended family to be there when their parents work.

It would have been nice if my fellow classmates could have explored cultural and religious differences (sociology) early on instead of historical textbook facts we can't relate to as well as how wealth or lack of affects the livelihood of families. Not everyone goes to college where sociology is a basic subject requirement. This one class made a huge difference on my view of the world.

It would have been nice if I could have learned about stress, how we react to stress, and how to manage stress. Many children DON'T handle stress which results in numerous problems they take with them into their adult life, like I did. Because I didn't have a voice, I internalized everything. I'm still in the process of working it all out as each new day leads to a new discovery and a new light bulb of awareness comes on.

It would have been nice if I had more than just crossing guards to protect me on my journey to and from school so I wouldn't have been subject to bullying (by both boys & girls). When I took the bus from first through third grade, I was bullied by nearby students. When we moved to a new town, I had to walk because my mother didn't drive and we didn't have neighbors who could drive us. We lived in New England so regardless of weather conditions, we had to walk. I was in pain as far back as I could remember and pain is stressful by itself. Perhaps children in need of protection (who are free to have a voice) could be assigned older 'qualified' mentors to look after them and protect them from bullies. The older neighbor girl who walked with us was one of many bullies I had to deal with. I wonder how things could have been different if I had learned it was O.K. to speak up and defend myself.

Perhaps had my education in psychology, relationships, & communication begun much earlier, I wouldn't have fallen so heavily infatuated multiple times (like so many females do) with all the wrong boys and later men. I was only 12 when I became infatuated for the first time. In a class on relationships, I could have learned the difference between infatuation and love as well as what a healthy relationship looked like -- and would have learned that my parents had serious problems. Perhaps I wouldn't have believed I was a bad person - never good enough - when they yelled at each other or me because I would have known it wasn't about me.

Perhaps if instead of studying Shakespeare, we could have been analyzing Disney movies and fairy tales. Right? Like what happens after infatuation? It would have been nice if we had REAL stories to read instead of romance fantasies which always had happy endings.

I can just imagine if instead of blindly falling in love, I was classifying the boys/men I met according to what type of psychological problems they had and how their lives would turn out as a result of those problems. And perhaps I would have developed the insight to know (ahead of time) who would be abusive, alcoholics, drug addicts, criminals, liars, cheaters, and worse yet -- sex offenders. (I've known all of the above). 

I certainly wish someone had educated me about how much trouble I could get into if I 'date' someone unsupervised until I got to know them, no matter how old I was. 

Oh, yes, I'd make self-defense as one of the mandatory classes taught in P.E. Boys weren't the only people I needed to learn to defend myself from. There were bully girls, too. I so wish I had learned how to defend myself verbally and physically before my body 'froze up' with Fibromyalgia. Mmmm.  

I wish, even more, I was taught that you don't try to love boys/men who are messed up by being in a relationship with them.

The more people I've talked to over the years, the more I have found out that no one is really immune to the kinds of emotional issues that I personally experienced in my own life and within my own family. Men, women, and children in our country are getting away with the murder of fragile hearts and souls. Sometimes, the murder includes the entire human being which includes school massacres. NO ONE is safe from predators unless they are specifically trained to protect themselves. So why aren't we learning how to do this from the very beginning instead of developing overwhelming helplessness - feeling powerless - which is the root of all illness, disease, alcoholism, drug addiction, mental illness, and more?

I think I've experienced quite a variety of infatuations which in every case left me heartbroken, losing a job, or suddenly moving (which I've done 43 times). In spite of the fact that I kept telling myself 'never again' there was another 'again'. I never understood what was happening until I read "Count Your Blessings" when I was 57 years old. In Chapter 16, Dr. John F. Demartini begins with: 

"Are you busy building pedestals? Generally, the people who build the tallest pedestals experience the deepest resentments down the road, and the bigger the infatuation, the harder it falls. When you see a person, a situation, an object, or a possession, as all good, you're in a temporary state of infatuation and illusion." 

I refer to this illusion as 'rose colored glasses'. This leads me to the next subject: finance.

We don't just become infatuated with people. We become infatuated with THINGS. And we want the things NOW whether we have the money saved up for them or not. And we've been taught from early on, that we can have just about anything we want... when we buy it on credit. And this is why our entire country is in such deep debt. We try to fill emptiness with things and wonder why after we have them, we still feel empty.

A few years ago, I had the opportunity to take one of Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University classes. Imagine if we began learning how to balance a checkbook in grade school as soon as we learned to add and subtract. If parents couldn't afford to give their children allowances, the school could give them monopoly money to pretend with. 

Next, we'd go on field trips to the grocery stores (with calculators) and calculate costs per ounce and which products are the better buy. Instead of history and social studies, learn about nutrition, what GMO's are, the toxic affects of sugar and food coloring, and where the meat we eat and the milk we drink come from. In biology lab, we'd experiment on how roundup as well as other chemicals affects our food and our bodies.

Children need to learn how to calculate how much things will end up costing us if we take out loans for them (yes, credit cards are extremely high interest loans). 

I was one of the few people who learned about money while I was still in high school because I took business courses which included bookkeeping. By the time I graduated high school, I knew a lot about income and expenses ... with the exception of the credit card thing. My father liked buying things with credit cards and taught me that it was the thing to do. He never figured out that buying things on sale on credit resulted in paying more than the item would be at full price. He even taught me that I had to buy cars brand new when I could have bought a perfectly good used car for a lot less. 

In conclusion, I believe childhood education should include psychology, sociology, communication, relationships, and finance from the very beginning... with self-defense in P.E. And if they were, don't you think our world be a better place? 

Then again, if our government is such a mess, and religious organizations are all clashing with each other, who do we trust to decide which psychology and finance specialists get to write our textbooks?

What do you think? If you could return to grade school, which classes do you think would have been more beneficial than the ones you had to take?

Monday, February 20, 2017

Becoming Your Own Best Friend

Once upon a time, I felt unloved. Because I felt unloved, I tried to find people to love me. All I got, were friends & partners who reflected back to me how I felt about myself and what I thought I deserved to have. Back then, I didn't even know how to feel loved by God / The Creator of everything that exists. As I grow into my 6th decade, I reflect back on some of the most important things I've learned so far.
  • Practice loving your 5-year-old self. If necessary, also practice loving younger versions as well. Find one or more photos of yourself when you were about 5 years old. Isn't he/she adorable? Cute? Lovable? Sweet? Precious? Huggable? When did you stop believing this about yourself? This child still lives inside of you. You are the age you are and every age you ever were. If you concluded by the time you were 5 years old that you were NOT worthy of love based on your parenting or traumatic experiences, you grew into an adult who has no idea the conclusions you made were false. 

  • Become aware. Watch your thoughts. Write them down. If they are negative or degrading thoughts, what proof do you have they are true? (Dr. David Burns--Feeling Good, The New Mood Therapy). I read a great book by Stephen Shaw "I AM". I was challenged by racing negative thoughts and Stephen was, too... until he met a wise man who instructed him to see them as flocks of birds and just watch them. Don't let them take over your mind. Ever since then, every time I see a flock of birds,(especially crows & blackbirds) I remember this book.

  • Do you find yourself judging others? Thinking negative about others? Their actions? This will give you a clue that you are also judging yourself. You will also keep attracting people & situations into your life to reflect what you are focusing on. Once you realize this is what is happening, you can catch yourself in the 'act'.

  • Use tools such as EFT / Tapping to interrupt self-sabotaging thoughts. There are books and many YouTube videos on the topic. The 2017 Tapping World Summit is about to begin so if you're interested, look it up online.
  • Find a Theta Healer or take a Theta Healing class. What I love about Theta is the belief work. After old thought patterns and beliefs are 'pulled', you must have new beliefs to replace them. Otherwise, you can feel disconnected and lost. Your identity was just pulled and you are left with Who Am I? The Theta Practitioner 'downloads' you with new ones... including what it FEELS like to be loved, trusted, respected, have abundance, and more... I felt amazing after I received my new 'downloads' and my life seemed to take off! Vianna Stibel wrote two books on Theta Healing which include just about every negative thought pattern / belief known to mankind. She explains how these can manifest as health problems. As you flip through the pages, you can find which beliefs you want to work on. It's especially nice to see there are common beliefs among all of us and we are not alone. I also learned that all the positive affirmations in the world can't over-ride what is in your sub-conscious belief system. It helps to find a qualified Theta Healer. Hint: When you take a class (3 days) you get a ton of downloads -- a more economical way to get multiple sessions in a single weekend.
  • Treat your body like it is a beloved garden. I wrote "Growing An Internal Garden" on ways to do this. Your body will appreciate the steps you take to become a healthier person through food, exercise, water, and self-love. The flowers of your body (your cells) will appreciate you. There is always a new online webinar/podcast series to teach you what you can do to become your own health advocate. My previous post is on Winter of Wellness 2017. By the time symptoms begin showing up, your poor body has already been overloaded and needs your help. Learn to be a detective and don't rely on medical doctors to figure out what you need. Blood tests only show current conditions. Doctors can only do what they were trained to do, which is to order tests and prescribe medication for the symptoms that show up.
  • Never stop learning new things. I love my Toastmasters group where there is always something new to learn pertaining to self-confidence, communicating, and leadership. I've said it before, but every week I hear inspirational speeches which keep me motivated. Many of these speeches are about over-coming life's adversities. The evaluations are made with the sandwich method to ensure you walk away with something to grow on. Many introverts come out of their shells and begin to shine (like me).
  • Last, but not least, fill your senses with Essential Oils. doTerra has a set of Emotional Aromatherapy Blends that comes with a chart. What do you want to feel less of? Find this on the chart. The chart will direct you to which blend would help you feel what you want to feel more of. My personal favorite at this time is Motivate. Buying the whole kit is much less expensive than buying them separately. Find a Wellness Advocate near you to sign up as a customer or become a Wellness Advocate yourself. 
  • You as a human are a work in progress. As long as you are alive, you have growth potential. Life is a journey, not a destination. I look forward to the next 30 years!
What is your takeaway from this post? Where are you at this time in your life? Have you explored any of the things I've listed here? Do you have any questions? Please leave your comments below.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

The Calcium Lie II & Glare

First, I wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day. Today, make a commitment to love the most important person in your life. YOU! I introduced the concept of treating your body like it is a garden in my book: Growing An Internal Garden. If your body is a garden, you will take care to provide it with the correct balance of MINERALS.

When I went to see my optometrist to have my eyes examined (I assumed the chronic headaches were due to my glasses being too strong for me again), I mentioned to him about the Winter of Wellness series and the book I read by Dr. Tom O'Bryan titled: The Autoimmune Fix. Dr. Berg told me he read it, has felt much better since following a Gluten Free diet, and asked me if I had read The Calcium Lie. This book was on my reading list, but I hadn't gotten to it yet. However, I figured Dr. Berg's comment was heaven's message that this should be the book I read next. 

The result of my exam? My eyes hadn't changed since last July. (Progressive Myopia has been reversing.) I went next door to Walmart Vision Center, saw a familiar face, and sat down to talk to her. We figured out the headaches were most likely caused by GLARE and the difference between plastic and high-index lenses. Back in July, I decided to buy two pair of inexpensive plastic single-vision glasses vs. expensive bifocals with high-index, anti-reflective lenses. I'll be searching for night driver's to wear over my glasses to reduce daytime glare and hopefully find a anti-glare screen for the laptop I use a lot.

Now for the book. In just the Introduction and first Chapter of this book, I learned how taking calcium supplements for most of my adult life has most likely been the root of just about all my health issues. Wow! Yes, there were emotional/psychological 'programming' components as well, but as for the physical, everything I read in this first chapter clarified many of the unsolved 'mysteries'.

"If you take calcium to strengthen your bones and you already have an excess of calcium in your body, you are signing your own death warrant. Think of it like this: Calcium hardens concrete. Imagine what it can harden in your body! Excess calcium can cause: 

  • Kidney and gallstones
  • Arterial plaque
  • Bone spurs
  • Calcium deposits in tissues other than bones
  • Brain cell dysfunction, brain shrinkage, and dementia"

Years back, when I met the mysterious Stephen King in the post office parking lot (MD, NASA, Chemist), he told me the same thing. He advised me to stop taking calcium supplements... it was depositing calcium in my arteries, joints, and brain. But then I gave in to my doctor's orders to take them again. (I've since changed doctors.)

Our bodies are so incredibly miraculously designed, you see--approximately 72% water & 27% minerals. We are not solid, we are energy--and our cells are electrically charged. This means, unless you have the correct balance of minerals, your cells get confused. No wonder I ended up such a mess! 

By the time symptoms show up, whatever organs are affected are already damaged. Even adrenals and thyroid.

As for minerals, we need complete ionized minerals as well as Sea Salt. Processed iodized salt, which is also added to most packaged/canned food, throws our balance off.

My nutritionist, Ambika, started me off on the right track by 'prescribing' Organa Liquid Minerals ( I also bought Himalayan Sea Salt. I still needed to understand why drinking milk alternatives (fortified with Calcium) and Calcium supplements were causing a problem. Many, in fact.

The Lie is that we need calcium to strengthen our bones. We were brainwashed by the commercials "Milk Does The Body Good." Many foods were fortified with calcium, like cereal and orange juice. While all this calcium is going to all the wrong places, our bones are being leached of the minerals it needs. When you get a DexaScan, you are 'diagnosed' with osteoporosis. Then you are prescribed a drug which throws your balance off even more. Two different dentists confirmed the jaw disintegration they've seen.

In the meantime, all the over-the-counter remedies for aches, pains, colds, flu, plus antibiotics disrupt your digestion so you take drugs for acid reflux and GERD--which also leaches minerals from your bones.

Enough of my rant. Buy this book and read it yourself!