Monday, February 21, 2011


I have been receiving some fantastic coaching from a student going for her certification. One of the things she told me was that I would not have received my vision without the means for it to happen. I am FEELING what it would be like having all the resources to better my quality of life. I started to remember a few circumstances when FEELING like I already had something was followed by having it even though I did not have $ to purchase it. I once had a Subaru Justy that turned out to be a lemon. While it was in a new shop, the owner let me borrow his Toyota. While I was driving it, I imagined it was already mine. I told the owner how much I really liked it and I ended up owning it with a loan from my employer and I was able to get rid of the Subaru. When Jesse (my only child) was born, I had nothing but a suitcase after walking away from a bad situation. I never lacked for anything. I was so euphoric about my new baby, that anytime I needed something, my sister or my mother found it at a yard sale. When we needed places to live they showed up. The most recent? I was using someone else’s new laptop computer, imagining that it was mine, and suddenly I had one… given to me as a present. Between coaching and Lynn Grabhorn’s book “Excuse Me Your Life is Waiting”, I believe I finally identified why I still have practically nothing…. So it’s time for me to get back into major day-dreaming mode (used to do this a lot when I was a kid) and allow abundance to flow into my life.  It’s time for me to TRUST GOD WILL PROVIDE in ways beyond my wildest imagination. It’s time for me to change my vocabulary from what I don’t have and what I don’t want to speaking as though I already have it. It's time for me to practice what someone told me a couple of years ago “be careful what you speak into existence”.

Friday, February 18, 2011


I had my annual physical on January 17. It's been 6 months since I've stopped taking the meds (SSRI's, Klonopin, muscle relaxers, hydrocodone & more), and modified my diet. At this point I feel like I am doing pretty well. My cholesterol levels appear to be tolerable, and my blood sugar is only a little bit high. I realized that without the meds, I no longer have dry eyes, a dry sticky mouth, dry lips, balance impairment (I know where my feet are now in relation to the ground), esophageal reflux, irritable bowels, constipation, bladder trouble, and I dropped back to my good weight. I don’t know what I would do without Liderderm patches, topical sprays, along with my TENS (Transcutaneous Electrical Nerve Stimulator) which helps to short circuit pain caused by nerve compression in my neck, shoulders, right arm, and lower back. Occasionally I won’t bother putting it on and I experience way more pain than what I can deal with… the kind that drove me to medicate to begin with. I still must get into some kind of exercise routine. I realized one day last month that I toted my briefcase, heavy purse, and a backpack of food into my house without even thinking about it! I haven’t felt this strong since my son was a month old and I gave up my car to walk and bike everywhere! I got stronger by carrying him around from infancy (in front packs and backpacks), too. I try to focus on the 2 months of painfree endless energy. Before going to sleep, I try to remember to thank all my body parts for supporting me all day. Then I focus on my breath, mentally elavate my spirit to remove myself from the pain so I can fall asleep.