Saturday, September 8, 2012

My Life is Truly Full of Miracles!

It's been unBELIEVEABLE! I just wrote my 2nd book titled "LOVE, LIFE, AND GOD: Getting Past the Pain". So I am not going to write the whole book in this blog. It is currently getting proofread. Louise Hay Publishing company (I subscribe to their newsletters) notified me of a contest for non-fiction/memoirs. Your manuscript had to be more than 50,000 words. It was time to write my 2nd book so for 2 weeks straight, I worked on it, pulling in information I had posted in this blog, inserting content from numerous essays I had already written, and typed up lots of great stuff I had written in letters to my mother (which I retrieved during my last visit). I didn't know if I could get to 50,000 words, but I made it to 60,000 words!

A brief summary goes as follows:
December 2011, I realized I needed to get back on some estrogen. When I did, the never-ending hot flashes alternating with chills cleared up.

January 2012, my doctor convinced me to try a generic of Remeron, a completely different class of anti-depressant. In about 1-1/2 weeks, I began to pull out of depression. It felt amazing to go from feeling detached and disconnected to remembering who I was and then some.

February 2012, I was still physically weak and emotionally challenged. My son was to get married on March 25 ... out in California ... and I just didn't think I could make the trip (on AMTRAK). I declared to GOD, that "IF YOU WANT ME TO GO, SEND SOMEONE TO HELP ME AND GIVE ME A REASON TO COME BACK!" Just after I made this declaration, I met a man at HEB who was looking for an available cashier just like I was. Because he just happened to comment that the lines were as bad as being stuck on the Mopac and the 35, I swung around to say "You were in Austin!" Yes he was. When I asked if he was working there, he replied yes he was. When I asked WHERE, he replied "a recording studio". To make a whole book's worth short, he ended up coming to the house, and listening to a couple of my songs. I got stronger and excited about getting all of them recorded. I even started to write new songs. He has truly been a gift in my life, and it is turning out that I have been a gift in his. I was able to get stronger physically, emotionally, and mentally, I was able to go to my son's wedding, and I had a LOT of reasons to come back! I even found a new chiropractor who has done wonders for this poor back of mine!

May 2012, I moved out of the HEB house and into my own awesome apartment. The lady who moved out of it didn't need any of her furnishings except her bedroom stuff. I bought everything (including shower curtains, wall decs, dish set) for under $300!!!!

Now, in addition to completing my 2nd book, I have begun recording my songs. This man is giving his all in helping me learn about the process, coaching me every step of the way. I have been posting my progress on my personal facebook page. So go take a peek!!!! I am simply blown away and in awe at all that has been happening in my life! I will be creating a webpage and getting 3 songs professionally recorded to upload as MP3's. On October 13, I will be giving my first solo public performance in front of a large crowd. (I met someone else at HEB who suggested I volunteer at the Chamber of Commerce office which is how I ended up getting on the list of entertainment for the Herb Fest).

In July 2010, I did stop all the meds cold turkey... and after the withdrawal, I "woke up" and received life instructions from GOD ... and that HE/SHE did not give me talents to keep in a box. Then I ended up in a BLACK HOLE when the euphoria wore off ... depressed & disconnected. I abandoned all my projects and gave up. I had no idea that I would be sent someone (yes, GOD sent me someone) to get me back on that track again. So you can see ... I have been walking around with a silly grin on my face because DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE!!! I've been through hell and back ... all that just for a book? Oh, well!

Blessed be ... this will probably be my last post on this blog for awhile. You'll have to look at my facebook page for updates ... and I will have links on it to my other pages as well.